My “Go Date” is coming up, fast. I can’t even believe that December is already over. I spent so much time waiting for this month that it just flew by once it arrived. This month was to be my final transition month. Making sure I have all the money I need whiI’m gone, all the gear I’ll need for my adventure, and the logistics for traveling to Wyoming
I’ve recently connected with a few of my teammates, I feel SO old! I thought that I might but I offio. So far I’ve got two 21 year olds and a 17year old….hahahaha. We’re all in this together though, and as soon as we’re out there age won’t matter. Skill set and determination will matter. And common sense, please oh please let there be common sense. I did have a thought today about doing something special for everyone in the course. Perhaps making special bracelets, pins, or patches. I worry though that it would be expensive and not enough time to coordinate, I would really like to get something together. Even if it’s small.
In all reality I probably will run out of time. All I do is chase the sun these days, not in the fun vagabond kind of way.
It’s been nice having all of this planning to distract me from the thought of leaving. It’s strange how different it feels to actually have made the decision to leave home for an extended period of time versus talking about doing it. I’ve never been away from home for more than two weeks. Two weeks is never enough time, but it’s enough to feel homesick.
I worry that life will go on without me, and inevitable it will. I have to come to terms with that. I’m stepping away from society and doing something different. My whole life here will keep revolving-evolving without me. That fact makes me heart hurt a little.
I’m sure everyone feels this way when leaving home. I’ll be fine and I’ll be back, I keep telling myself.
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