I’m unsure if anything that I say will change your path. Parts of me wishes that it would, most of me is thankful that it won’t.
You have always been so sure of yourself, giving advise before asking for it, looking after the ones you love. I encourage you to lean more on others, spend more time listening and learning. You may have the answers but yours isn’t the only right way, ask more about others experiences and seek wisdom from them.
You don’t know something, until you know it. But good God girl, don’t waste any of your precious time. You have no idea what opportunities wait for you on the other side of one hard decision- one hard conversation. Fight for yourself.
Continue to learn from your mistakes, and take the time to understand them better. Get to know yourself from the inside out and don’t let your choices haunt you. You have a past, present, and future self. You need to be aware of and take care of all three of them.
Spend more time thinking about you. Truly considering if where you are and what you’re doing is for you, for someone you love, or because it’s easy. Life should be full of hard decisions. You should be arguing and speaking your mind. Don’t let someone bend to your will because a true friend and partner will fight for themselves too.
Only accept the love that you deserve, and continue to love as hard as you always have. One day you might build walls that are harder to break down than you think. Getting hurt is inevitable but if you stay guarded for too long you will miss the chance to let people see the most genuine you, that can hurt even more.
Through all the bullshit, continue having all the fun. If you think you have it “figured out” you’ve probably given up on something. Stay curious and weird. You won’t regret that, ever.
Love, Cait.
I was inspired by a prompt from HitRecord to write a letter to my younger self. I thought about this all day, struck by how difficult it felt. When I finally sat down to write things flowed easier than I expected. I am also realizing how prevalent all these words are to my present and future self. I had to be really thoughtful in this exercise and it feels vulnerable- but I am very thankful I took the time.
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