I’ve never been good at goodbyes. I feel like this chapter of my life is going to have a lot of goodbyes and that scares me. More than the thought of being alone.
I hate the feeling when you’re together for the last time and you have so much to say but no idea how to say it. Sometimes I like ignoring the inevitable- treating a goodbye as any other “see ya later” but honestly, I care too much.
Goodbyes hurt because you’re killing a “what if”
The potential of you with a person- ideas, thoughts, feelings, love. I feel all of those things slip away, slowly
I need to prepare myself for many more goodbyes. I hope that it gets easier in time- but not because I care any less. I don’t want to love less. Ever.
I want to understand this heartache and use it to grow more space to love bigger-
I want to love bigger, and unafraid.
Be unafraid of changing love
Create love that will flow through the cracks and nestle into place inside me and be there when I need to call upon it.
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